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Zn�w kr�tko, w sumie o niczym - ale przynajmniej nie trzeba by�o d�ugo czeka�. W nast�pnej, mam nadziej�, b�dzie ciekawiej.

Zn�w to samo… Zn�w by�em �ywym trupem, jak co miesi�c. Wszystko mnie bola�o, by�o mi niedobrze i warcza�em na wszystko, co si� rusza. Nienawidzi�em dos�ownie wszystkiego, od pod�ogi, po sufit i ca�okszta�tu w tej przestrzeni zawartego. Do sza�u doprowadza�a mnie nawet my�l, �e jest wtorek, �e musz� chodzi�, siedzie� na lekcjach. Wierci�em si�, pyskowa�em profesorom i dzi�ki temu jednego dnia straci�em dwadzie�cia punkt�w i wlepili mi szlaban, kt�ry odrobi� jak b�d� m�g� w miar� normalnie funkcjonowa� po przemianie.
Z ci�kim westchnieniem rzuci�em si� na mi�kkie ��ko, wciskaj�c zarumienion� od gor�czki twarz w poduszk�. Wgryz�em si� w ni�, rozz�oszczony z bli�ej nieokre�lonego powodu. Jeszcze ta cholerna Donna musi przy ka�dej okazji sycze� mi do ucha, jak� to jestem �wini� i „kradziejem serc”.
Zacisn��em mocniej powieki, by wyrzuci� t� idiotk� ze swej g�owy. Ju� i tak przez ca�y dzie� chodzi�em nabuzowany, a nie mia�em si�y si� zerwa� i kr��y� po dormitorium. W trupi spos�b zareagowa�em na trza�ni�cie drzwi i dziarskie kroki. Nagle urwa�y si�, a ich w�a�ciciel nabra� powietrza. Nim zd��y� si� odezwa�, ja ju� czu�em mieszanin� bzu i ja�minu z lekk� nutk� czekolady.
- O, tu jeste�!
Syriusz. Nawet nie burkn��em w odpowiedzi, dalej imituj�c zw�oki. O uszy obi�o mi si� jego westchnienie, a nast�pnie s�ysza�em, �e podszed� do mnie. Zacisn��em pi�ci na szkar�atnej ko�drze, wydaj�c z siebie m�cze�ski �wist. Nie porusza�em si�, a� nazbyt wyra�nie pami�taj�c, jak gdzie� ko�o po�udnia strzeli�em go w twarz, wrzeszcz�c co� o idiotach i zakazie zbli�ania si� do mnie pod kar� �mierci. Uwielbiam, kiedy ponosz� mnie emocje. Spi��em gwa�townie wszystkie mi�nie, kiedy wsun�� mi sw� zimn� d�o� we w�osy, zaczynaj�c mnie delikatnie g�aska�. Czu�em od niego jeszcze… Zapach wiatru i �wie�ego powietrza. Po chwili si� rozlu�ni�em, przechylaj�c nieco g�ow�, by by�o mi �atwiej oddycha�. Poza tym, dzi�ki temu mog�em jednym okiem obserwowa� kruczow�osego. By� nieco potargany, a policzki co� lekko podmalowa�o mu na zdrowy, rumiany kolorek.
- Jak si� czujesz? – spyta�, patrz�c na mnie uwa�nie.
Wbi�em w niego sztylet swego szyderczo-zirytowanego spojrzenia. Cmokn�� cicho, �ci�gaj�c mi z w�os�w gumk�, prawdopodobnie, by by�o mu �atwiej mnie mizia�.
- Rozumiem – przyzna� wsp�czuj�cym tonem i pochyli� si�, z g�o�nym cmokiem ca�uj�c mnie w skro�. Przymkn��em oczy, czuj�c, �e mia� przyjemnie ch�odne wargi. Pewnie dopiero co wr�ci� z dworu.
- Daj mi co� zimnego… - wymamrota�em ledwo zrozumiale.
- Co?
- Co� zimnego… - z wysi�kiem podnios�em g�os.
Si�gn�� za siebie, chwytaj�c szklank� z mojej szafki nocnej. Przy�o�y� mi jej �ciank� do skroni i policzka, dzi�ki czemu mog�em poczu� jej cudowny ch��d. Rozkoszne dreszcze przetoczy�y si� mi po ciele, wyrywaj�c mi z piersi ciche westchnienie. Uwielbiam to chwilowe uczucie ulgi… Nie ma nic pi�kniejszego od tego s�odkiego doznania.
Zakr�ci�em si�, unosz�c nieco na �okciach i podpe�z�em do niego. Ulokowa�em sw� cholernie ci�k� g�ow� na jego udach, niezdarnie oplataj�c go r�kami w pasie. Potrzebowa�em czu�o�ci. Bardzo. Jak zwykle zreszt� przed i po pe�ni… Czarny dobrze o tym wiedzia�, wi�c mog�em na niego w tej kwestii liczy�, bez wzgl�du na to, ile razy mu b�d� grozi�, bi� go czy wyzywa�. Nie wiem, czy jest w stanie sobie wyobrazi�, jak mu jestem za to wdzi�czny. Mi�dzy innymi w�a�nie dlatego z tak� rado�ci� pisz� za niego wypracowania na histori� magii.
Pochyli� si�, przygarniaj�c mnie bli�ej do siebie i przytulaj�c. W takiej pozycji zawsze lekko szokowa�o mnie to, �e jest ode mnie tyle wi�kszy - czubkiem g�owy ledwo si�gam mu do szyi! – i tak ciep�y. Zacz�� pociera� wci�� jeszcze zmarzni�tym podbr�dkiem o m�j kark, co sprawia�o, �e mia�em lekkie, aczkolwiek przyjemne ciarki. Bardzo skutecznie mnie to rozlu�nia�o. U�o�y�em si� nieco swobodniej, przymykaj�c oczy. Pozwala�em mu si� g�adzi� po boku i g�owie, raz po raz si� przeginaj�c przez �askotki i pomrukuj�c.
- Wiesz co? Na urodziny kupi� ci takiego wielkiego mi�ka! – U�miechn��em si� leniwie, s�ysz�c zapa� w jego g�osie. – A potem go tak zaczaruj�, �e b�dzie ci� obejmowa� i g�aska�, kiedy ja nie b�d� m�g� tego robi�. Mam nadziej�, i� jeste� �wiadom, �e mam wy��czno�� do tego przywileju? – doda�, niby gro�nie.
Parskn��em cicho.
- Ale� oczywi�cie – mrukn��em niemrawo i potar�em g�ow� o jego brzuch. – Przytul…
Ponownie si� schyli�, wzmacniaj�c u�cisk. Zwin�� ko�dr�, przykrywaj�c mnie. Ch��d materia�u, ciep�o rozgrzanego ju� cia�a Syriusza i jego delikatny, czu�y dotyk sprawi�, �e wr�cz zrobi�o mi si� b�ogo, a niezno�ny ucisk w skroniach znacznie zel�a�, przynajmniej na chwil�. Nie chcia�em pyta� go, kt�ra jest godzina. Nie chcia�em wiedzie�, ile czasu mi zosta�o… Ba�em si� us�ysze�, �e musz� si� wysun�� z jego obj��, w kt�rych zawsze czuj� si� tak dobrze i bezpiecznie, by zn�w prze�ywa� te wszystkie katusze w znienawidzonej przeze mnie chacie. Mocniej obj��em go w pasie, wciskaj�c mu rozpalon� twarz w podbrzusze. Tak bardzo nie chcia�em i��…
Niestety, nic nie mo�e przecie� wieczne trwa�, tak wi�c po kilkunastu minutach drzwi od dormitorium ponownie si� otworzy�y i wszed� James.
- Remi! – zawo�a�. – O�miel� si� zauwa�y�, nie bez przykro�ci, �e musisz ju� i��. A ty, szanowny panie Black, masz szlaban…
- O rzesz… - mrukn��, spinaj�c si� gwa�townie. – Zapomnia�em!
- McGonagall nie zapomnia�a – powiedzia� z powag� okularnik.
Wysun��em si� z ramion Syriusza, wzdychaj�c ci�ko. Zaraz po tym przed twarz� pojawi�a mi si� Jamesowi gar�� z za du�ym dresem, kt�ry bra�em ze sob� do chaty, �eby mie� co na siebie wci�gn��, czekaj�c na piel�gniark�. Skin��em mu niemrawo g�ow�, patrz�c na jego smutny u�miech.
- Chod�, odprowadz� ci�. – Wyci�gn�� do mnie r�k�.
Pozwoli�em pom�c sobie wsta� i chwiejnie ruszy�em do drzwi. Chwycili mnie pod �okcie, podnosz�c i zaczynaj�c znosi� mnie po schodach. Zachichota�em s�abo, nie mog�c si� powstrzyma�. Przetransportowali mnie tak do przej�cia pod portretem, gdzie znikn�li�my, odprowadzeni zaskoczono-rozbawionymi spojrzeniami Gryfon�w. Na korytarzu postawili mnie na moich trzynastoletnich nogach, bym m�g� i�� samemu. Wiedzieli, �e nie cierpi� ogranicze� swojego cia�a, cho� mimo wszystko opiekowanie si� mn� sprawia mi przyjemno��. Wszak to nie ja nienawidz� takiej jakby… Niedo��no�ci spowodowanej moim wilko�actwem, skr�ceniem nogi czy czymkolwiek innym. To ten wilko�ak we mnie si� w�cieka, kiedy co� go hamuje.
Ws�uchuj�c si� w g�upaw� rozmow� ch�opak�w, dotar�em do skrzyd�a szpitalnego. Syriusz obj�� mnie delikatnie i nic nie m�wi�c pog�adzi� po w�osach. Odwzajemni�em ten gest, u�miechaj�c si� lekko. Nast�pnie szarooki pomacha� nam i pu�ci� si� p�dem w stron� gabinetu profesorki. James zmia�d�y� mnie w u�cisku, a� st�kn��em.
- Trzymaj si�, potworze – szepn��, chyba si� boj�c, �e kto� w tym pustym korytarzu nas us�yszy. – Wszystko jest na dobrej drodze, �eby� za jaki� czas nie musia� by� sam.
Odsun�� si� i pu�ci� mi oczko z szerokim wyszczerzem, po czym wepchn�� mnie do skrzyd�a. Z dusz� na ramieniu podszed�em do piel�gniarki, kt�ra pog�aska�a mnie po g�owie – mo�e dlatego jestem taki niski… - i poda�a mi trzy buteleczki z zawarto�ci� o nieciekawych walorach smakowych. Grzecznie wszystko wypi�em, pozwoli�em opl�ta� si� szalikiem i pos�usznie ruszy�em za ni� w stron� wierzby. Nic nie m�wi�a, jedynie raz po raz zerka�a na mnie ze smutkiem i ci�kim westchnieniem. Nie poprawia�o mu to nastroju.
- Poradzisz sobie? – spyta�a kilka metr�w przed wierzb�.
Skin��em g�ow�, przebiegaj�c spojrzeniem po niebie. Kilka cumulus�w leniwie sun�o po czarnym niebosk�onie, zakrywaj�c cz�� gwiazd i kawa�eczek ksi�yca. Podoba�a mi si� ta nocna panorama.
- Jak zawsze – doda�em jeszcze.
Podnios�a z ziemi patyk i podesz�a do pnia, szturchaj�c na nim naro�l. Gdybym mia� wilcze uszy, zapewne zastrzyg� bym nimi energicznie, s�ysz�c chroboty i trzaski rozpl�tuj�cych si� korzeni, ods�aniaj�cych tajne przej�cie. Nie powiem, lubi� ten d�wi�k. Chwil� p�niej, do mego nosa dotar� s�odki zapach wilgotnej gleby.
- Przyjd� rano, tak jak zawsze.
- Dobrze – b�kn��em, osuwaj�c si� na kolana.
- Uwa�aj na siebie – poprosi�a jeszcze ta mi�a, m�oda kobieta, po czym odwr�ci�a si�, ruszaj�c w stron� zamku.
Zaci�gn��em si� s�odkim zapachem ziemi, po czym wgramoli�em do �rodka. Zjecha�em bezw�adnie po wilgotnych, wystaj�cych kamieniach w d� kilka metr�w. Opad�em ci�ko, uderzaj�c si� w biodro. Unios�em si� na �okciach, po czym zacz��em sun�� w stron� chaty. W tym miejscu tunel jest tak niziutki, ma oko�o metra wysoko�ci. Nawet gdybym jako wilko�ak wpad� na to, by podnie�� klap� w pod�odze i ruszy� tym oto przej�ciem, to i tak nie da�bym rady wyj��. Jak niby przecisn�� niemal dwa i p� metra przez ledwo jeden na jeden?... Przyznam, �e pomys�owe. Ja bym pewnie nie wpad� na tak oczywist� rzecz.

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