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Sorki za nieobecno��, jestem troch� zabiegana. Ale macie teraz d�ug� nocie.Czekam oczywi�cie na krytyk� i...pochwa�y mog� by�. pozdro dla wszystkich a w szczeg�lno�ci dla Niki i dla przeciwniczki kropek... Jestem ich na�ogow� nad u�ywaczk� wi�c nic nie poradz�. Mam nadziej� �e poczekacie do nast�pnych ods�on tego pisad�a a'la Merry Sue - b�dzie wszystko wyja�nione w swoim czasie...pa.

C.D.Rozmowy....
Staraj�c sie robi� to, jak naj mniej inwazyjnie, gdy� �adne wtargniecie w czyj� umys� nie by�o mi�ym doznaniem, przekazywa�am Remusowi swoje s�owa...By�o to o wiele �atwiejsze ni� przekazywanie klarownych obraz�w...."m�wi�am" wi�c powoli i wyra�nie.

**Chc� Ci powiedzie�, �e nie wszystko jest, jak pewnie wiesz, tak proste jak czer� i biel. Ty b�d�c...kim jeste� nie musisz koniecznie by� zagro�eniem dla otoczenia...prawda?!**

Odczeka�am chwil�. Dr��co skin�� powoli g�ow�. Przymkn�am oczy.

**Ja te� nie jestem zwyk�� uczennic�. Ale nie jestem te� potworem...**

Cho� sama nie by�am do ko�ca tego taka pewna....

**Moje umiej�tno�ci wynikaj�ce z lat nauki i pewnych....zdolno�ci, nie s� niczym co, tak jak w Twoim przypadku, powinno by� wystawione na �wiat�o dzienne...rozumiesz?**
Po chwili ponowne kiwni�cie, tym razem dostrzeg�am na twarzy zrozumienie...Ale i w�tpliwo��. U�miechn�am sie ze zrozumieniem.
** To o co chcesz mnie zapyta�...Nie. Nie musisz sie obawia�. Nie czytam w Twoich my�lach. Pytanie masz wypisane na twarzy. Mam takie zasady.... nie chodz� w kr�tkich sp�dniczkach, nie jadam tego co jeszcze �yj�, ani nie przegl�dam w formie magazynu sportowego czyich� umys��w. Jasne!?**

Niezbyt przekonany po raz kolejny kiwn�� g�ow�.Tym razem z lekkim u�miechem.

** Musisz wiedzie�, �e dla kogo� nie posiadaj�cego perwersyjnych sk�onno�ci, przegl�d wspomnie� i my�li innego stworzenia, nie s� szczytem dobrze sp�dzonego czasu. Dziwisz sie? Ot�... gdyby� przypadkiem dowiedzia� si�, �e czyja� matka sypia obecnie z Twoim nauczycielem, lub �e kolega z tej samej sypialni podkochuje si� w Tobie... Nie spa� by� ju� chyba tak spokojnie.** [/i]

Rozdziawione malowniczo usta i otwarte szeroko przera�one oczy, �wiadczy�y o zrozumieniu sprawy. Chrz�kn�am w pi�� ukrywaj�c rozbawienie.

**To jeszcze s� drobnostki...- powa�niej�c doda�am-....z my�lami, cz�sto strasznymi, widzisz tam r�wnie� wspomnienia, oraz wi���ce sie z nimi emocje...cz�sto gorsze od koszmar�w...Nie s� to informacje z kt�rymi �atwo p�niej normalnie �y�...**

Remus, dot�d milcz�cy zrobi� skupion� min� i us�ysza�am ciche i nie wyra�ne...

**...sia�a� ogl..da� wiele umy...��w...**

- No nie docenia�am kolegi.- by�am szczerze zaskoczona....pozytywnie.
Uni�s� g�ow� z lekkim p�sem na policzkach.
-Czyta�em �e trzeba dobrze panowa� nad my�lami �eby s�owa uk�ada�y sie dla kogo� w wyra�ny ci�g.- jakby musia� sie usprawiedliwi� doda�- Du�o czytam wiesz?!
-Trudno nie zauwa�y�. Przewa�nie gdzie� sie szwendasz z ksi��ka pod pach�.-pos�a�am mu u�miech. Na chwil� zrobi� skupion� min� i spyta�.
-Sk�d wiesz co kryje si� w ludzkich umys�ach? M�wisz �e nie robisz tego, a tyle widzia�a�.
Bystrzacha-pomy�la�am.
-Czasami trudno jest tego nie robi�. Np.kiedy zagro�one jest Twoje, lub bliskich Ci os�b �ycie, a jedynym sposobem na obron� jest dowiedzie� sie czego� o przeciwniku, "zobaczenie" tego czego�.
*P�prawdy, p�ki co...s� dla Ciebie najlepsze, robaczku.* - pomy�la�am.

Jego spojrzenie wyra�a�o trosk� ale i mas� innych pyta�. Wyprzedzi�am je.
-S�uchaj. Nie b�d� Ci opowiada� o ca�ym moim �yciu, bo za kr�tko si� znamy. Poza tym s� sprawy, kt�re wol� zostawi� tylko sobie. Ok? Ty te�, jak i ka�dy, ma do tego prawo.
Popatrzy� na mnie troch� zawiedziony, ale po chwili u�miechn�� si� do mnie.
- Nie wyja�ni�a� mi jednak, co to za umiej�tno�ci posiadasz, a widz� �e to temat kt�rego usilnie unikasz.-wyszczerzy� z�by w u�miechu, rozpieraj�c si� wygodnie na swoim siedzisku.
*Cholera! Sama tego chcia�am, ch�opak jest uparty...*

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-Jeste� uparty wiesz?!
U�miech...
-Wiem.
-To jest co�, czego i tak si� nie nauczysz szybciej ni� z jakie� 70lat...a i tak wtedy ju� nie b�dziesz mia� zbyt wiele czasu i energii na u�ywanie tego czego sie nauczy�e�.-pos�a�am mu jeden z moich u�miech�w a'la "daruj sobie"
-To, przepraszam �e pytam, jak ty si� tego nauczy�a�? -kpi�ce spojrzenie- Z prostej rachuby mia�aby� teraz jakie�......80/90lat?!
Moja twarz by�a nie przenikniona. Powoli z jego twarzy spe�za� u�miech, zast�puj�c go min� pe�n� nie�adnego niedowierzania....
-Nie czaruj, teraz to ju� kity wciskasz! - wyrzuci� z siebie
-A co? Chcia�e� odpowiedzi....
-Ale teraz przesadzasz, to jest niemo�liwe...- doda� ju� zdenerwowany.
-Uwierz mi, nie ma rzeczy niemo�liwych sa tylko trudne...
Odwr�ci�am sie i z zacz�am z wolna is� w stron� schod�w prowadz�cych na d�.
Us�ysza�am za sob� szmer i odg�os krok�w...I nagle....
B�ysk...odwr�t...Gest...odg�os przypominaj�cy dart� tkanin�...j�k...szybko wci�gni�te powietrze i wypuszczone z westchnieniem niedowierzania.............i.............cichy stukot upadaj�cej na kamienn� posadzk� r�d�ki....
Remus sta� kilka krok�w przede mn�, jego twarz by�a bez barwna, jakby ca�a krew z niej odp�yn�a. Sta�am z wyci�gni�t� w jego stron� r�k�, u�miechaj�c si� delikatnie. Jego r�d�ka le�a�a odrzucona moim zakl�ciem...
Jego spojrzenie uparcie tkwi�o w mojej pustej d�oni, na niedbale skierowanych palcach w jego kierunku....
-...j-jak?-g�os mu dr�a�
-Gdyby� s�ucha�....- westchn�am.
-Tylko dla tego �e u�y�am tego rodzaju magii, by�am w stanie odeprze� Tw�j atak, b�d� co b�d�.... w plecy- spojrza�am mu twardo w oczy.
-Przecie�...- zignorowa� sugesti� z mojej strony.
-Tak jak m�wi�, u�y�e� niewerbalnego zakl�cia, mia�e� przewag�....tylko �e ja nie potrzebowa�am �adnych formu�ek ani machania r�d�ka...to da�o mi szybko��.
-Ale sk�d wiedzia�a�?! - wreszcie jakby niewidzialne kajdany pu�ci�y, nagle i post�pi� kilka krok�w w moj� stron�....
-Nie wierzy�e�. Chcia�e� dowodu...To by�o nazbyt widoczne...nawet bez zagl�dania do Twoich my�li.
-A jednak!...-krzykn�� z triumfem -...wiedzia�em! Nie masz takich, niez�omnych zasad.
Co� we mnie przygas�o...a wiec o to mu chodzi�o. On wcale nie zamierza� sprawdzi� czy to co umiem jest prawd�. Chcia�a po prostu sprawdzi�...mnie....
Zrobi�o mi si�...wstyd....
-To nie tak jak my�lisz!- chcia�am naprawi� cokolwiek...
-Akurat! -podni�s� swoj� r�d�k� i wyprostowawszy si� spojrza� mi prosto w oczy - Nie wiem co chcesz osi�gn�� przez wciskanie mi tego wszystkiego, ale nie chc� wiedzie� nic wi�cej.
Chcia�am co� powiedzie�. Nie da� mi.
-Nie martw si�, wiem co to umowa...nie jestem tylko pewien co do Twojej obietnicy... Odwr�ci� sie i po prostu zbieg� schodami z wie�y zostawiaj�c mnie os�upia�� z ca�ym ba�aganem my�li.
Cholera! Jak to jest �e nasze intencje obracaj� si� tak �atwo przeciwko nam. Przecie� nie o to chodzi�o...Ugh!

Kot pojawi� si� jak zwykle znik�d.
-Oczywi�cie...gdyby� by�a mniej rozrzutna w s�owach.
-Zamknij sie!-warkn�am z zaci�ni�tymi w pi�ci d�o�mi.
-Masz jednak to co chcia�a�. Ten ch�opak ma w sobie honor. Nie zrobi nic przeciwko Tobie...tylko ju� nie pr�buj niczego polepsza�.
-Zje�d�aj stad!!!
-Tylko bez takich... - zni�y� niebezpiecznie cicho g�os - ...niepotrzebnych emocji.
Natychmiast zmitygowa�am dodaj�c cicho i spokojnie...
-Wiem...ale, on te� nie jest tak do ko�ca fair...uderzy� w plecy.
Cichy �miech i odpr�ony g�os- �adnego �ladu zniecierpliwienia.
-A czego sie spodziewa�a�?! Przecie� to Huncwot.
Zerkn�am na niego uwa�nie. Nie wykazywa� zaniepokojenia. Nic w jego postawie nie wskazywa�o na to, �eby�my musieli przejmowa� si� tym incydentem.
Odwr�ci�am twarz w stron� jeziora...s�o�ce przygasa�o...od strony wody dolecia� mnie ch�odny powiew wiatru i �miechy wracaj�cych z b�oni uczni�w...przymkn�am oczy.
*Nie umiem tak �atwo nie przejmowa� si� czyimi� emocjami....* -westchn�am
-Remus....

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